You wanted to be the first to leave. 

I carried our love with a clenched jaw. 

Every tear begging you to stay. 

I've forgotten how to breathe.

Our always has gone away.

There are no harsh words to send your way. 

Because I love you. 

I will love you always. 

You held my souls attention with every beautiful word you ever spoke to me. 

You engraved my heart with every letter you ever wrote me. 

And in my clumsy way I became yours.

A story I can't tell. A word I can't spell. A memory I can't recall. 

My ache.

My other, my unknowable, so lovable. 

My always.